flowers in the winter time

We're not serious and yet he's proposed
that he's positively sure that we're the greatest combination of all things that could be combined
we're invincible in a most fragile way, I took a great big bite out of him and spat it on the floor, only to have him apologise for not being sweeter than he is now
is a funny time just between then and later, I try not to forget about now although I did before I must confess
that I want you to know and everyone else, that this is so real and that I am not sure if this is forever
I hope to remember all the little things he does, like tucking me in late at night, staying awake with me through 24 hour last minute assignmenting, writing my bibliographies (of which he gave such scrupulous integrity to the rest of my assignments!), for listening to my hormonal rants each and every month, for supplying me with chocolate during hormonal and nonhormonal occasions, for stroking my hair and sitting with me when I'm sick, for loving me in my trackpants and old t shirts, for listening to my dreams and inspiring me to believe in not just myself, but in others and the world, that I never realised existed and for all the time
to change the topic a little and let me tell you what he's done for you
are my friend(s) depending on how many personalities you have within your mind. I cherish you - truly- although I am a drifter who tends to drift ever so quietly along borders. He told me to believe in you, in all of you, and made me believe in everything and more. but maybe it was too late? maybe I'm too late? he thinks that you are all wonderful and I hope that you will read this. it's hard to feel human when we're afraid, it's hard for others to trust us when we find gaps between our self concept and reality.

This brings me to another thought. I have an exam tomorrow. It is on a psychology based subject. It is interesting for the most part because all the text books always give examples and it's easy to make up your own examples to every day life.

Carl Rodgers has a humanist perspective on people. He believes we can all become "full functioning persons" but that a lot of us don't because we find gaps between our self concept and reality. He believes that we can cope with this gap by 1. distortion or 2. denial. In 1. distortion, we attempt to change our perception of reality so that it is in tune with our self concept and with 2. denial, we deny that reality has any part of our self concept.

He also talks about this idea "unconditional self regard". this is where a person knows and feels that they can act whichever way that they so wish, wish the knowledge and comfort that they will be loved no matter what.

I like that idea. I believe he was on to something.

Hopefully they'll ('they' being whoever wrote the exam) will ask something about carl rodgers. i've become quite well acquainted with this chap.

Goodnight sweet peas.